Dear coolibrarian,
I am so very, very sorry this is happening to you! How awful! Something somewhat similar happened to me many years ago and I don't know how I got through it. I wish I had some advice for you, but sadly I am at a loss. Hopefully your T will be able to help you on Friday. Maybe your Pdoc will be able to help you. I have been inpatient before and it helped me. I realize that everything I have written here is pretty pathetic and unhelpful but I don't know how to be helpful to you in this heartbreaking situation. Hopefully others here will have better words for you than mine!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen