Yes, this is very hurtful and difficult. I am just trying to make the best out of all the butter lemons. He swears that there is no other woman, he would be happy I would think, but this is different, he is just a walking sad zombie. He doesn't even have the will to drink anymore, or eat, or sleep. This is different from when he had an affair 2 years ago. I don't know what to think at this point.