The final decision is yours. i agree with the wise and wonderful busymomof5 that it'd be best to share your doubts with your therapist before you make any decisions, though. That said, if you do truly feel like this is the best decision to take then there is no shame in that and Hopefully you can conclude things Peacefully and calmly with her. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Mountaindewed, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!