Kinda just a vent ngl

I just want to die at this point, theres no point in living or trying anymore, Im 22 yet I feel like Ive wasted my life already and why bother existing?

I hate my job and I cut at work often, I cant stand the sight of myself and I hate the fact that Im too much of a ***** to actually do anything

I know Ill never amount to anything, all my art looks like **** and I have zero will to do my hobbies. I regret taking this job cause it's just tanked my mental health.

And I know everyone hates me, they prolly wish I was dead too, why would they ever want someone as boring and uninteresting as me to be alive? Wasting space that someone better can fill.

I might kill myself over this, I really dont think it will get better.