When I was in the third grade, I was sent to the South wood facility, where they send troubled youth, for having severe depression. Just before that they had prescribed Effexor for me. ..could there be a connection? I didn't have depression before that. And I didn't take effexor for years after that, but the depression never went away. . . more recently, I tried it again. Effexor did not work, it just made me hyper and jittery, but I still felt the same inside. . .This depression has been eating away at me since grade school, and I'm terrified to do anything about it. I certainly don't want to go back to a dreadful place like southwood, but I don't want to be like this any longer. My friends and family don't even know I'm depressed, I hide it very well. They think I'm this happy person that I am not. . . .is there a name for that? hiding everything that you really feel?