Dear LittleWing696,

I am so very sorry you are in this unhappy situation. Given the magnitude of the your choices and their possible effects, I think it quite understandable that you are conflicted and are experiencing force that keep pulling you in different directions.

Complex situations are not easy to sort out and I imagine the things you are considering are probably one of the most complex issues you will face in your life. I wish I had some great insight to share with you, but sadly I am at a loss for ideas. Hopefully others here will see and read your post and respond with something really helpful to you. I am so sorry that I was unable to be helpful to you but I sincerely hope that everything eventually will work out for the very best for you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen