Hullo kiddo, it's your guardian kitty,
Next time you feel the way you describe in this post, march yourself into the nearest ER immediately. Please, for my sake. Hospitalization is NOT "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" or "Girl Interrupted," and I feel fury at a mass media that has left those indelible images on the minds of people who are thinking of hurting themselves. Hospitalization saved my life. Not just in the obvious sense of sewing my left wrist back up, but also in helping my to reassemble a mind in tatters. Please don't fear hospitalization, luv. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. Cheshire Cat