If you have any addiction of any kind you can look up A Buddhist Inspired Path to Recovery from Addiction - Refuge Recovery. In some cities there is Shambala. Shambala is based off Tibetan Buddhism, but it's practice starts off secular and can be paired with any tradition. Home - Fort Collins Shambhala Meditation Center. You can stay there as a volunteer and help with camp, it's almost free that way. I have yet to be able to set that up and it takes time, but maybe you can. There are also tons of videos online of the Dalai lama's speeches, he teaches meditation and he the Buddha of compassion. Plus there are always Alan Watts videos, You're It is a great one if you have 8 hours to listen to it. If a schizoaffective person with a disorganized attachment style and history of alcoholism can learn empathy, so can you!