So Sorry to hear this. Erasing trauma is not something that happens easily and it can take years before fully Healing. i think it's important to REALLY think about it since it's been well over a year of you feeling like this. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LittleWing696, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!