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{{{{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm worried about me too........terrified actually. Thanks for caring in the midst of your own issues, you are special.....

Mary Alice

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The same could be said of you (and is), but I will be so mad at you if at any point you abandon us. Not to put guilt on you, but that is how I feel. I'm sitting here trying to think of what to say to you, and I am at a loss. You are one of the most empathetic and intelligent people here, and we can't afford to lose you. And if we can't, just think of your son!

Six months ago I was suicidal too. I had a deadline and was saving up pills to overdose. I didn't do it, and the only reason at the time was because I knew how bad it would be for my family and a few other people (mostly on-line) who care about me. I told my penpal about it, and will never forget what she wrote me back, "think of your poor cyber sister sitting her with tears running down her face knowing that she was too far away to help you." That is the same way I feel about you right now.

Please don't withdraw. Yes, it's cruel to drag us along and let us get to know you and love you if you are just going to end it and nothing we do can make a difference. Even so, not having the chance to know would be even more regrettable if that is even possible. Keep talking to us and let us know what you are going through. We already know anyway, but maybe by sharing it your burden will be lessened some, and it is worth it. You are worth it. You are worth living for.

Wendy

<font color=blue>Life is filled with tragedy; if you let it overwhelm you, you cannot enjoy life's innocent pleasures. -Robert Heinlein</font color=blue>