I think about this a lot. I struggle with taking care of my house and need help with that so I do have one area that I don't do well in but the difference between now and starting clozaril 5 years ago is huge and I'm terrified of being told I am fine and should work. I've lost my professional license and would have to do a lot to get it back and even then I couldn't handle it. I am qualified for nothing and there is not a single job I can come up with that I could tolerate. But when my therapist says I don't necessarily need weekly visits it scares me.

I don't know a solution, just the fear.