I just found out that my ex fiance has died. I do not know how or what happened. I just happened to Google his name this morning (for some unknown reason - curiosity I suppose) and I found his obituary.

He was extremely abusive towards me, he had a LOT of mental health issues and alcoholism, and we had a most contentious and horrific breakup. It was one of the hardest and most painful breakups I've ever had. It took me several years to heal from it.

But this news? I am in shock. He was very young. He was 14 years younger than myself - 35 when he passed.

This is very sad. No matter what happened between us, I feel sadness over his death. No condolences are necessary. I am just posting because I am in shock.

I had also sent him an email before Christmas, saying "I forgive you."

He passed away in August, so he never saw my email. I wonder if he knows in spirit that I forgave him.