@MisterPaul. I was very much in love with him in the beginning. It's a very long sordid story, in which when I moved him to my state to live with me, I learned then of the whole picture of abuse, etc. It then became a nightmare. I will never forget him for what he meant to me, however. He meant something very special to me at one point in time. Naturally, when you become engaged to someone, you're thinking you will spend your life with them, which is what I anticipated at the time of engagement. How can I forget someone I was engaged to, once in love with, and then who died so tragically? Your question is surprising to me.