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Originally Posted by MisterPaul
I'm just curious since I've memorized your words from one of my threads:
I'm the total opposite of you, so I find it interesting to know about your way of thinking. And I must say, I admire your attitutde.
From what you said, it sounds like the man was an abuser and a degenerate. Therefore, if I were you, I'd just say to myself: "Death does not equal absolution. Goodbye".
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MisterPaul. I had written to my ex fiance last December, just before Christmas, with the single words, "I forgive you". I did not know that he had died at that point. I also had not messaged him in two years.
I had recently determined that I need to forgive all past abusers in my life - I had been carrying around the pain of the abuse for YEARS. It was eating me up alive and slowly killing me, so to speak.
So I also just apologized to my abusive husband too for all the hurtful words I've hurled at him over the last 7 weeks out of anger and rage. I do not want that on my conscience. Hurtful actions do not need to inspire hurtful actions in response. I am a better person than that. OR I should be a better person than that. I am ashamed of myself right now for all the ugly words that have come out of my mouth. It's not who I wish to be.
Death is pretty profound and can have a profound effect. It's really making me think. And this tragic event makes me want to be a better person, overall.