i am so overwhelmed by how far behind of a mess ive got here now i have no idea what to do about it.
im ashamed and embarrased and upset with myself for letting it get like this.
i dont know where to start, what to do 1st, how to manage all of this myself... im afraid to ask for help because i dont want to cause some type of situation that will get me into trouble with the enormity of the disaster they might decide needs to intervein further into.. i dont want friends or family to see how bad ive let it get.. i dont want strangers come in and start getting into things and bulling and bossing and pitching stuff without cause ..