L and I had a huge rupture Monday night/Tuesday. It happened to be a miscommunication, but what I went through was real. I thought she lied to me about something very meaningful. I instantly lost all my trust in her. The only reason I went to Tuesday's session was because I promised I would always have at least one closure session with her. But in my mind we were over. I didn't bring my dog or the project I spent working on while she was on vacation. We were done. She explained herself Tuesday that she miscommunicated, that what she was talking about had to do with her past and nothing to do with our present or future. (Just now I'm questioning if that was a lie to just settle me down?)

Anyways, we had a double session Tuesday and seemed to work it out, but I felt exhausted and fragile. Friday's session we focused on the project and just being together. If felt good, but I still felt uneasy, uncomfortable, sensitive, and fragile. Now it's Saturday night, and I still am feeling theses things.

If you ever recovered from a rupture with your T, how long did it take for things to feel back to normal? L says we'll be stronger for this. Right now, I feel super weak and beaten up. How do I get past this even if it was all a miscommunication?