Deiila, Sorry to hear about your struggles! Yes, giving home to rescue kittens is a purpose! Their lives depend on you! For them you mean safety. They don't care about your thoughts or if you are up or down. To have you means everything for them.

Please don't give in now. They will find a medication that will work for you, but perhaps not at the first try. Continue to stay in contact your provider. Please let not thoughts about eventually becoming an in-patient disturb you. They will find a solution for you, this or that way. Life will become better after this!

Thinking on you!