So Sorry that you're struggling so badly! It is REALLY good that you're reaching out to your own doctors to get some Support! Please do keep practicing self-care as you're already wonderfully doing and definitely keep in touch with your doctors and do not forget that we are here for you as Well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Deilla, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!