Seems normal to me that you're shaken after something so intense. At least I know I would be - the possibility of being lied to or manipulated is a big fear of mine so once the possibility comes up I ... umm, I'm really crap at handling that sort of situation, so it's hard to say anything at all about this topic, but ... if your T is as open to discussing it and as accommodating of your needs as it sounds like, I think continuing to be upfront about your concerns might just lead to recovery, even if it takes time.