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Originally Posted by Cheryl27
I don't know if my response will be helpful and I apologize if it isn't. I lost my Grandpa almost 8 years ago and I have simailar feelings like guilt, sadness. Grandpa was my abuser and I have this love/hate thing going on inside. I also wished he died when he was alive. I numbed my pain with alcohol til 3 years ago and I did not grief.
I think it's hard to grief when it's so complex. I hope you can find some help through this Hugs
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Thanks, Cheryl
So sorry to hear that. I'm not surprised you numbed yourself that way. We have to do something
It does really help, talking to people who understand
When the caregiver is the abuser, it's hard to describe the terror this causes in a child
And the lengths they'll go to in order to stay alive. We stretch ourselves into the craziest shapes in order to exert some kind of control over the situation, and prevent another attack
Meanwhile, we are not developing properly as children. Not trying things out. Not making mistakes. Not giving attention to our own needs