Trying to get in the moment by saying hi stupid memories flooding my head...my therapist and I talked about carrying a small notebook and jotting down the gist of the memory right away, to get it out of my head. I haven’t purchased a notebook yet and really don’t want to carry one around. Mostly memories of best friends, a couple. I challenged their poor handling of their nonprofit for kids 2 years ago. They were running it into the ground. Anyway, they proceeded to call all the board of directors and told them I was manic. I was being angry. Forty years friends! Bam, attack me at my weakest point. They had even helped me through wild mood swings. I can’t get this out of my head. Comes back to me all day long every day. Could I have done things differently? Had we changed so much in 40 years and not even noticed? I guess its a moot point. I just want it to stop. Guess I will buy a notebook.