Hey all, still feeling down and trying to motivate myself to pack. At least I did most of the kitchen yesterday. I also need to donate my old car and I really hope I can find that darn title. I am the worst with that kind of stuff. Yesterday the psych resident told me to try fixing my iron levels first to see if that helps my depression, but then called back today and was like actually if you want to try stopping the gabapentin you can. I think he probably talked to the psychiatrist about that. Depression is a warning for gabapentin and I think all antiepileptics maybe?

I honestly feel like such an annoying patient and like they seem a bit frustrated with me and I feel really awkward about all that. Nothing I can do about these med responses, though. Anyways, it is all probably going to work out even if it doesn't feel like it right now, and I am aware my life is good in many ways even if it doesn't feel that way. I am going to go figure out this car title thing. Get out of this chair and do something productive. I stopped doing my walks and most of my healthy habits, just don't even have the willpower but need to.

Sending compassion to everyone.