I’m doing ok. I just had to take a break from PC. I felt like I was becoming too dependent on it. I also had to deactivate my Facebook account. The news was too triggering. I was panicked all weekend about my therapist. I didn’t want to fire her. I had just had a panic attack while sending her the email. I had my mom send one Sunday night explaining how I felt like my surgery in October changed my personality and how I’ve just become angry and moody because of my UTI.(the at home test is still showing I have one but I feel fine) My therapist replied that I misunderstood her and she just needed to create boundaries in emails and that she’d be happy to continue to work with me.

So I saw her today. I kept it very business. We talked about the emails. She just said again that it was a safety thing. But she was pretty enthusiastic that I had learned stuff in the program. She did ask how I know when something isn’t going to work out and when I feel like it will work out. I felt like she was kind of asking about me and her. I mentioned that one therapist I had. I didn’t make any connection to current T. Basically I was just treading really carefully today and keeping it professional. We did not keep track of the time which kinda threw me off for a bit afterwards. I felt like it was kind of an abrupt ending. But I see her again next Tuesday. So I didn’t fire her. She was very nice and more non business then I was being. And she was not being standoffish the way I kind of politely was being.

I called my primary this morning. I asked him if I could split my dose of my injection in half and take it every week instead of every other week. I feel like that will level out my moods since this transition is mainly why my moods have been so ****ed up for 10 months.

I see my Pdoc in a couple hours. I plan on having him keep everything the same since primary has already adjusted things today.