I will try writing them down. I kept a journal for a long time, but it didn't help to change anything. It got my thoughts down, but I kept churning through the ruminations and memories. I'll try again. Interestingly, after writing this post, I took 5mg of Adderall in order to get the focus to work on a painting that I couldn't quite "get" to. That's the ADHD. It's like there is an invisible wall between me and the thing that I have to do. With the Adderall, the flow of memories subsided and I was able to work. I wonder if there is also an attention component to this. I'll discuss with my therapist. Thanks everyone!