Have hope,

I have read several of your posts, but this one struck me. It is in our deepest, darkest moments that we discover our true friends and family support. Basically, it is just me and my cat right now. I have had numerous crying bouts on the floor and that has to be the most surreal experience. I only have 1 true friend, but he is too busy with his family to really assist me.

I have been going through literal hell on Earth and have been surfacing to keep myself alive to see the next day. No one has ever helped me and not one person will want to see me in my state. I guess there is not much one can do when someone is about to fall apart and crumble.

I have been through this before and I know eventually it will end. Nothing is permanent and eventually this will come to pass. Sadly, though you're right, most humans cannot help a human at their most vulnerable, fragile state. If I were to see a friend crying, I would offer a hug. Yet, with COVID as rampant as it has been, even a hug is probably asking for too much.

All I can offer is this....you must succeed and trust yourself to be your best friend.

--sarc