I feel slightly guilty for cutting these two friends loose. Is it because they were long-term friends? Is it because I am not used to putting my needs first? It's true that I am not used to putting my needs first because of a narcissistic father.

I mean, with the one who had moved across country, when I told her I almost went to the hospital the other night, her only words were "this too shall pass"? I would have called my friend immediately had a good friend of mine told me that. It was so glib, so shallow. Her words fell on deaf ears and made no difference to me in my moment of need.

I shouldn't feel guilty for taking care of myself, but I do anyways.