He is hoovering me big time.

I know in my mind that it's pure manipulation, all lies and smoke screen. I know that he wouldn't TRULY change his ways. I know that if he sees a therapist, that he will simply manipulate the therapist and would find a way to blame ME or to place equal responsibility on ME for our fights, which he starts each and every time. I know that him wanting me back is simply so that he can maintain control over me. I know that he wants to be the one to leave me. I know that IF I went back, it would hurt even more than it has. And I know that he would set out to destroy me completely, while being able to leave on his terms. Right now, it's all on my terms, and he's probably suffering a narcissistic injury.