i don't think you're selfish for wanting your friends to be more responsive. i'd suggest to be Honest with your friend and tell her that you don't feel like you're gaining much from this Friendship. i am So Sorry things aren't going that Well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @cookiepie234, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!