What is happening? You have changed since the holiday break. In a good way. You’re more attentive to my feelings and more willing to help soothe me in those moments of being triggered and having flashbacks. I think you have guessed what happened to me as a child. When I was triggered today and you gently said ‘it’s ok we don’t have to go there, let’s stay safe, it’s ok I understand’ it felt like you were saying ‘I have an idea of what has happened you and you don’t need to explain until you’re ready.’
And then at the end when you went outside to make sure it was safe for me to walk to my car as you had seen screaming drunken youths nearby earlier. That made me feel cared about.
This is all new to me, it’s weird and uncomfortable because it’s not familiar and the weird fuzzy feeling I have inside is lovely but scary. The little me is so unbelievably happy. I’m trying to just take it as it is but at the same time I’m scared it’s going to go wrong. But yeah, thank you for today. It had the potential to be a disastrous session but actually turned out to be one of the best ones we’ve had for a while.