Que sera sera,so sorry for what you went through as a child.My mom was not alcoholic but was very violent,cruel and put me through all kinds of abuse.When I played house,I used to try to breastfeed my doll and sang lullabies to her.Later cried myself to sleep.I am sorry for all of the posters who had abusive mothers.Its just awful to be in that situation as a kid.Hugs to you all.