I am so tired of working with my wife. I honestly wanted to send her a “nastygram,” but I don’t see the point. I’ll keep bottling up my rage inside and talk to my therapist.

We almost divorced 5 years ago. She tried to blame it all on my bipolar disorder, but I’m now starting to think that I may have not been too off the mark.

Honestly I feel like the only reason I continue to stay in this marriage is because I tried living solo for a year and it ended in disaster - I put on 20 lbs, developed a horrible chain smoking habit, ate complete garbage 24/7, and racked up almost a 100k in debt. She "nursed" me back to health and let me help out with her business. But honestly I am wondering if I can go on like this.

Also it makes my skin crawl being around her, being on calls with her, hearing her laugh, and how she talks...

I'm reminded of that song "Drive" by The Cars:

You can't go on
Thinking nothing's wrong, oh no
Who's gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Anyway – here’s the note I planned to send; feel free to weigh in.

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I'm thinking it might be better if you just go ahead and make these decisions and just go ahead working on all this stuff w/o me...

i know what you're going to say - "Ok fine I'll do it all..." or "what do you want me to say..."...

I know you like to take on 1 million things and stressing yourself out, endangering your health, and spending money on new things, but some of us are not wired that way.

I know you'll say "it's fine, i'll just do it all" but I figured I'd let you know what's going on in my head. And I'm conveying it to you this way because if I try to talk to you you’ll just flip out and it’ll stress me out more. This is about everything – the book, the website, the social media, all the services you’re planning on launching.

I honestly think you should just keep going at 1 million miles per second and digging yourself an early grave, and getting pissed off at anyone who doesn’t go along with you. You ask for people’s input and then tell them that you don’t agree, and that you’re going to do it your way anyone.

I would like to continue working as it gives me some purpose, but I’m really not sure how I can continue at this pace. I know you’ll say this is harsh, but I’m wondering if you should go hire another employee that quits after 2-3 weeks.

So take this however you like; just thought I’d let you know I feel.
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