I'm not confused. I know what I want and what I don't want. And I don't want HIM. But I do want him sexually. I wish we could. I really want sex right now and am missing it badly. He's the one I've been sexual with for the last three years. I miss him in that way. I don't really miss him in too many other ways. I also miss just having someone to share good news with and to celebrate successes with. He wasn't even very good at that. He would make it about himself somehow.