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from 2nd grade to 8th grade i too was bullied and was a "loner" and in the 4th grade wrote a letter of intent for the want to commit suicide
i still have thoughts once in a while but it does not control my life

some events during my 7th/8th grade years gave me courage to get help and i did take group therapy for a few months

i thought i had anti social at first- but I have more of the Schizoid personality disorder- but not enough to be truly diagnosted- im doing my best to self help myself- also why I am here and everyone else here
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for the sake of your life and the ones around you- you have 2 good choises:
1: sitting down with your family and asking them to listen untill your done talking and then open it up for conversation

2: go to a school councler or a school school psychologist and tell them you think you have anti social personailty disorder and want to see a doctor about it for help

being blunt- school shootings are a result of kids not geting the help they deserve

if you truly have had those thought to the extent your talking about- be it your family or someone else- you need to WANT to change and do what you can to do it

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I'm attending a counceling session next weekend. To be honest I don't know if I even want treatment. Most likely I will open enough just to be diagnosed so I know more about what I am. I can act differently around my family and I know I'm right in my manner of thinking. Perhaps you have to be abnormal to see past the illusion of humanity and to tkae into full perspective the full extent of the flaws of society.