So Sorry you're having bad experiences. Online friendships and relationships can be complicated but they can work out in my opinion. Perhaps it would be good to let people whom are interested in friendship know in advance that replying to your messages in a reasonable time-frame is important for you? i am not sure if that'd come off as abrasive or something. In any case it is up to you to decide. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Have Hope, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!