So Sorry that you've been through this. Some events can be particularly difficult to Forgive. i don't have a lot of advice to give unfortunately other than continuing to work on it during your therapy and constantly trying your best like you're already doing. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @SlumberKitty, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!