yesterday i got my report card and one of my teachers said that i didnt try and that i never did my homework i have already explained that i cant do my homework on thursday nights cuz i have to work and she doesnt care and i try my hardest in maths so for her to say that when other teachers said that my effort was good it really hurt

when i got home i took like a whole sheet of painkillers and was drinking softdrink

later last night i was talking to my best friend in sydney and i started crying uncontrolably i was tempted to end it all and was going to cut but i had a shower and calmed myself down a little and went to bed

today i came to school and went to see my maths teacher about it and she said it wasnt her problem and i was furious then i went to lunch and all the people who are supposed to be my friends just started going off at me cuz i had apparently said somthing bout one of there sisters and so i am left now feeling quite alone and wondering what the hell is the point in being alive if everything is against me