i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. Do not let the past haunt you as everyone makes mistakes so no need to be hard about yourself! We can't change the past but we can change the future so definitely work on that. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Gasplessy, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!