Feel horrific. Still in isolation. No one has asked how I am still.

You have a lot of family on facebook, no wonder you can't understand me when I say none of my family care about me. Must seem completely alien to you. I've been listening to M on a Skype call with his family, they are all so chatty and happy sounding. Of course you don't care for me as family, I am just one of your clients.

I'm thinking a lot about missed opportunities, about how lots of me just 'wasn't there' to engage with people before. So it's not like I could have done it differently.

I don't know why I'm in this terrible country, I wish I had stayed in Norway. More people cared about me there.