So Sorry to hear that you're struggling. i am afraid i don't have much to add myself. However i think it is normal to have doubts about your own diagnosis sometimes so i wouldn't worry too much about that and i'd try to simply understand what you can with little steps. Sorry this post isn't really helpful but i'd rather not give bad advice. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miss Laura, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!