I'm concerned that you seem to be taking deeper swings in emotion. I'm not sure if that is because you now realize the possibility you may have Bipolar disorder or you realize your mood is swinging.

If you feel like you want to hurt yourself or others, call emergency services.

I think you should arrange to consult with a psychiatrist or your family doctor. Bipolar is a very rough disorder. But there are people ready and willing to help you through it.