My fiancé’s boss tested positive. The boss he works with in close contact all day long. They don’t wear masks because they work on trucks and other equipment. It’s almost a guarantee that he will test positive. I mean, maybe not, but it could be. I have a fifty fifty shot as I’ve had the first vaccine. My son could get it too but it will be hard to tell because of his sinus problems. The congestion already causes him to be nauseous quite often because of the drainage. He does have a cough now though coming from his chest so I’m nervous. I’ve been nauseous all day but that happens from vertigo. And RS feels fine. So maybe we will escape it. I hope so!

Termite inspection went well, the person said there’s no active infestation just the previous damage. Said they could fix it for $1k. We’ll ask the sellers and see what they say.

I had another anxiety response to RS touching me last night. Just cuddling. It’s getting worse. It’s like a damn game of mental health whack a mole. One issue gets squashed, another pops up. I couldn’t sleep for hours even after taking seroquel and Xanax. I had to take extra Xanax and seroquel at like 1am. I never would have done that on a weekday, I function better on less sleep than with a med hangover, but I thought I could sleep in. But I got a phone call at 8:15am and couldn’t go back to sleep knowing I had to be up anyway. I did take a nap later though which I haven’t done in a long time.

I think if I initiate intimacy such as cuddling on my own it won’t be so anxiety inducing because I’ll be in control and it won’t feel like a prelude to something unwanted.