I found a video about what I can't say yet. I do want to talk about it but I don't know what it all means yet. I'm faced with what I was taught in childhood and it's ingrained in me that I shouldn't talk about it. Yet, I'm in distress because I don't know what to do or how to say what I need to to you. You won't judge me, but I will judge me. I've been saying I'm bad, evil, for so long it's extremely difficult to love myself or anyone else. I'm afraid I'll end up alone because I'm terrified of making a mistake.

I'm in a vulnerable position. Have been for 7 hours. Still can't believe it's been that long since session.