Dear pinklucozade,

I am so sorry that you are burdened with what you wrote about in your post. It must be a source of stress and distress in your life. I think you are exceptionally heroic to have carried this burden so many years. Wish I knew what to say that would help, but I am not a physician or medical professional. Hopefully others here with more knowledge, experience and wisdom will see and respond to your post. I do want to welcome you here to the Forums. I have found this a nice place where one can communicate with others going through the same or similar things. People unafflicted with mental health burdens have no idea how burdensome they are and how heroic are those who bear them. I sure hope you will eventually be able to be diagnosed and treated so you will not have suffer this ordeal you describe. So sorry that I could not be helpful to you.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen