I am constantly in a dissociative state currently and basically everything just leaves my mind so quickly. My memory is so messed up. I try to write down things or film myself to help myself (mostly just when I am practicing)... But it is weird to only remember things from viewing this material later on, no connection to this whatsoever... I somehow have a few memories of the last few days but totally out of order... It is very confusing... Like multiple days put in one.. It is hard to describe... Apparently I am not the only one living my life... Just like watching a movie like usually...