Sorry I haven't been around I'm hype focused on this art program Miguel bought me. I'm not really sleeping and irritable. I don't feel high or low. My new T can't see me until mid-march. I don't see pdoc until march either. I'm not taking my fluoxetine so the only med I'm on is the abilify. Pdoc's going to be upset but I just can't Plus I don't need it right now. I'm trying to keep myself busy from the time I wake up to when everyone goes to sleep and then I get up when the sun comes up. I've accepted there will always be a part of me that wants to SH. That will always be my first response to everything but as long as I don't do it it's fine. It's just annoying. I may ask my husband to take my prn to sleep more tonight.