Dear T,
I appreciated your saying, "When are you going to stop feeling shame for that mistake? Really, give me a date." Because I think it helps put things in perspective. Five years is both not that long ago and very long ago. Especially considering how life is now. And I guess part of me sort of wondered if you judged me for it, but I don't get the sense you do.

I hope we can still meet next Friday. That your vaccine schedule (if you end up getting it that day) and meeting schedule will allow it. I appreciate your saying you'll let me know your schedule when you find out. Also that you feel my seeing you three times a week makes sense for me right now. It felt like you were choosing your words carefully, probably because you know how sensitive I am about things like abandonment or rejection. But it also seemed like you were being honest, that you weren't just saying what I wanted to hear.

Do I ask if we can keep a somewhat reduced rate into March? Maybe something in between my current rate and usual (somewhat-reduced) rate? Would that be fair? I guess I'll see closer to the time how I'm doing, what's going on with insurance, and how things feel.

Also, you seemed emotional again today. And it was nice seeing you with your glasses off for a decent amount of session. Made it feel more like it was in person.

Love,

LT