My apologies - I got frustrated because I felt criticized and misunderstood.

I really do not think I am giving mixed messages. I am being friendly towards him, but distant. I am not giving him any false hopes. Every time he says he misses me and loves me, I inform him that it's over and that I am not changing my mind. If he chooses to believe that he can wear me down or that I WILL change my mind, that's his own doing and his own fault. He's been delusional all along, saying it can be fixed when I've said it cannot be fixed. I've said I will never trust you ever again; he says "you can trust me". He's delusional.

He doesn't want to listen to me, he's not respecting or believing my words, and that's just the way it is. He's in denial of what is happening, and that is outside of my control. He's being a typical abuser, love bombing me and thinking he can change my mind.

In the meantime, I'm pushing him to get all his stuff out of the apartment in the next two weeks and before I start work.