I prefer to think of it as fulfilling or unfulfilling. I don’t understand why meaningful is the word people typically say. Does life have meaning? Be fruitful and multiply. I suppose that’s man’s purpose.

I do feel unfulfilled in some ways because I wanted to, but did not do those things that would meet my potential. But, I felt having children was most fulfilling for me and that perhaps having them fulfilled my purpose.

I don’t worry about it. I just feel bad that I checked out of life in some ways. I did it mostly because I’m just lazy. If I had wanted to bad enough, I would have done those things. I suppose, I could still do things I feel I wanted to do even now. It’s never too late.