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LonesomeTonight · Jan 26, 2021, 12:08 PM

Dear T,
Ugh, H might be against sending D back to school if they end up deciding to open in March. As anxious as I am about it, I feel we need to risk sending her in large part for D's mental health. But also in part for my own. And now I'm worried H is going to say no, and this seems like a "two yes" sort of situation. Yet another ray of hope that might be dashed....

And like I said yesterday, of course I'm worried about the safety of teachers (and other staff) and would like them to all get vaccinated before this starts. Hopefully they'll at least be able to get one dose (which provides some protection) by the time school might start, if our state gets enough vaccine. And I worry about our safety, too.

Possible trigger:

But I'm hitting the point where, despite all my fears, I'd rather risk dying of COVID than keep going on like this for months with no end in site. But I don't know that I could tell H that. And it's different risking *my* life compared with those of all the people who'd be involved in teaching her. Though I'm not the one choosing to open schools, am I? So I feel sort of like a horribly selfish person. But yesterday you said you understood completely how in my position, I'd want to send her back. So hopefully you can talk me down from a potential guilt spiral...or from other thoughts if H vetoes sending her back, assuming they do vote tonight to reopen.

Love,
LT