Hi I really relate to your post. I'm having trouble accepting that I have a mental problem and I don't want to stay dependent on the drugs. I am hoping to wean off them soon and work on stabilizing through mindfulness. I have a lot of anger because I was abused in the hospital and forced onto drugs that made it worse and I had to go back to more times. I'm interested in what you're reading about CBT - perhaps I can try that. I'm going to a therapist and also a psychiatrist but I don't have a particular therapy plan yet.